eK pAgLi Ki KaHaNi

gaaaahhhhhhh...... i feel so screwed up...!!!!!!!! and i have no idea why im feeling like this... on one side...i have my bf who's barely talking with me.. and on the other side...its my guy friend who seems to be avoiding me... and there's me, stuck in the middle...wondering why am i confused and feeling hurt thanks to both the guys.. on my bf's issue...i know that he's busy with his work and all... but dont tell me, a guy cant even spend 10mins out of 24hrs to talk with his gal? how many times do i have to keep trying to reach for u when u dont seem to be taking the effort? how long more do i have to wait until i get to actually talk to you? to connect with u? to get to have a bond with you? i know u arent the guy for mushy stuff, but still...there's gotta be some conversation rite? i mean why else are we even in a relationship? that's what its all about isnt it? to be able to talk, confide, share, help, motivate and be there for e

i cant sleeeeeppppppppp!!!!! apart from the constant itching no thanks to annoying mosquitoes... my mind doesnt seem to want to go into hibernate mode (scumbag brains) n so here i am... unable to sleep staring at the white screen listening to some of my fave melodies... so much for having a dash of the rum :P yeah, in case no one knew.. i drink. but i absolutely hate beers. i love hard liquors instead. makes no sense... but yeah, that's me.. anyways...despite having a small dash of it mixed with my hot choc..(choc helps me sleep, so i thought adding the rum might get me to doze of faster...it worked previously) but unfortunately...im still awake...for the past 2 hours.. =_= and i have an 8am class... i'm so screwed...*sigh* adioz ~shakti~