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Kanave Kanave   mounamaana maranam onru uyirai kondu ponathe uyaramaana kanavu inru tharaiyil veezhnthu ponathe [a quiet death that took my life... a lofty dream which has fallen to the ground...] thisaiyum ponadhu...thimirum ponadhu thanimai theeyile vaadinen nizhalum ponadhu nijamum ponadhu enakkul enaye thedinen [my direction is gone, the pride is gone in the fire of loneliness, i am wilting away the shadow has gone, the truth has gone i'm searching for myself within] kanave kanave kalaivatheno karangal ranamai karaivatheno ninaive ninaive araivatheno enathu ulagam udaivatheno [dreams, dreams, why do you fade? crushed hands, why do you dissolve? memories, memories, why do you sting? my world, why is it breaking?] kangal rendum neerile meenai pola vaazhuthe kadavulum pen idhayamum irukutha ada illaya [my eyes are wet, living like the fishes, god and women's heart do they exist or not?] oh o

I just turned 24... I guess this hasn't been the easiest time yet for me... It's THE AGE where you should have already sorted your life out, know which direction to go, plan when you're getting settled down & stuff... But for me, I think I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere. 1. I haven't finished my degree 2. Things haven't been smooth sailing with my significant 'otter' 3. The degree I'm is nothing related to my passion, albeit it is a degree that I do want and am interested in. *i know I'm weird in that way* 4. I'm still jobless a.k.a still dependent on someone financially 5. Unable to pursue my passion because I don't have the finances either. So yeah. As much as I'm grappling with all these, I just wanna be thankful today for the things have been going okay for me so far. 1. My parents ~ they've been pretty great 'cos they've let me do some things my own way 2. My family ~ they'