Feeling bored and ignored

i dunno why…
i’m just feeling as though i’m good for nothing…
seriously…
the last couple of days passed in lethargy…
which got worse today…

i haven’t exactly doing stuff that i want…
especially today…

and with friends, i feel like im at an information centre…they call/talk to me only when they want something, or want me to do a favour…
i mean, isn’t there anyone who’ll appreciate me for me…
i know i make it a point to keep in touch with friends…
now i feel what my mom said is right…i’ve been making myself look like a fool…
with the words ‘Gullible’ written on my forehead!

for goodness sake, please don’t treat me like this…
i don’t do this to you guys…
and i wouldn’t do this to you…ever!

it’s these kinda times that i wish i had someone…
a special someone…
whom i can just pour my heart out…and not be judged…

adioz
~shakti~

Angels and Demons 2

went to watch angels and demons for the second time today.

the first show that was available - 11am ;)

but unfortunately, a couple of bimbos that sat behind me and my friend would not shut up!! at all!!

their 'volume' started to go higher somewhat in the middle of the movie.

being a tolerant person, i tried to ignore them.

and when it got too annoying, i turned and told them to keep quiet.

but apparently no avail. though they did quieten...abit. not alot.

towards the end, they started to talk loudly and were laughing at inappropriate times. seriously, that is bloody annoying.

i mean come on, you're in a theatre, not at your house with a couple of loser friends. other people too are watching.

that's when i lost it and told them to "shut up!"

and they actually began to talk more!! on purpose!!

how impudent was that!!!

damn... a great movie though...

spoilt by idiots!

adioz

~shakti~

Angels and Demons

omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!
one word – awesoméfied!!!! (yeah, i just created a new word ;P)
i noe by now i sound like a hyper-teenaged school girl.
but heck. im saying it like i saw it.
seriously, though im not the kind of a person who recommends movie’s to others, this one i would.
but a word of caution.
if you’re kind of the staunch Catholic or not into Dan Brown’s books, then i feel you might not enjoy this movie.
but sometimes, we just need to open our minds and give others/new ideas a chance.
kinda like the theme of this movie i guess…
i better shut up before i reveal the rest of the story. ;P
im hyper-excited.
lolx.
and also my tip for watching movies – ANY movie.
go in with little or ZERO expectations.
that way, u don’t get disappointed. ;)

adioz
~shakti~

p.s. i usually don’t watch an ‘adapted’ movie (a.k.a. Harry Potter) without reading them first. same with the da vinci code. i actually read the book first, then watched. this is one exception at the moment. so now, my next quest is to hunt for the book angels and demons…
wish me luck in finding it ;)

im back

~don't leave me~

grandma went home today.

she was pretty sad.

i'll miss her too.

adioz

~shakti~

blekk...

didnt actually finish the last two...
was kinda busy...things kept coming up after that.
and now grandma is staying over.
im not complaining about that though ;)
i love having her around.
nyways
i might be busy for the next few days...

adioz
~shakti~

im back...

6. dry them (load 2 is still on the spin)
7. clean my room
8. clear my cupboard


should have started as it was listed.
i tried to clear my cupboard first.
disaster!
will be back...


adioz
~shakti~

back to werk...

yeah...and it gets pretty annoying when someone keeps nagging ya to turn off the modem...so ciaoz for now...
i gotta finish the last 3 ;)

adioz
~shakti~

5 out of 8 ;D

things to do today...

1. tidy the hall
2. sweep the house
3. wash the dishes
4. dry them
5. put clothes for washing
6. dry them (load 2 is still on the spin)
7. clean my room
8. organise my cupboard

5 out of 8...i feel pretty proud.
not to mention, i did one extra that my mom called and asked me to do.
- cut up vegies ;P

so now, i deserve a little break.

adioz
~shakti~

twitter

time to check it.

i joined it but then havent done anything.

hmmm...

but first...

to the chores!

;P

adioz

~shakti~

.chores.

things to do today...

1. tidy the hall

2. sweep the house

3. wash the dishes

4. dry them

5. put clothes for washing

6. dry them

7. clean my room

8. organise my cupboard

i think that's enough for now....

adioz

~shakti~

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

aaaaoooooooouucccccchhhhhh!!!

im beginning to hate blood tests!!
i used to think it's just a prick, and you would get it done and over with.
but nooooo~
you under-experienced lab assistants and nurses can't even get the blood out of me in a single prick!
seriously!!
not one, but 2-3 times until they finally get my vein n draw the blood out!!!
sickening...

and i thought i had to take only one test...and at the most maybe, two for a confirmation...
i had to take three!!! make it 3 and a half cos the 1st time around, they prick me a few times and they COULD NOT get any blood!!
small veins it seems!
my foot!!!
then, because they didn't have the "right equipment"" a.k.a. some 'butterfly needle', they asked me to come back in two days time. when i went 2 days later, it turned out to be a busy day. i had to wait pretty long. finally, sometime later, my mom's student, who is working as a lab assisstant decided to do it. she too had trouble. but in the end, she managed to get some blood out of my left arm. that took 2 pricks all in all.

after that, my mom abit on the paranoid edge due to my results (dont even ask)...she finally decided to consult my friend's mom - she's a nurse btw. so she asked me to come to the house at 6.30am so that she could draw some blood and send it to the haemotology dept. this was my 2nd blood test.

though unfortunately, she encountered the same prob...but she told me the reason was due to my veins being deep....she had pricked my left arm twice but no blood...a couple of mins later...i felt giddy...and i blacked out..
bleahhhh...so embarrassing...especially cos im not the type of person who is afraid of blood. in fact, i even prefer to watch when im being pricked. call me weird, but that's how i am.
anways, she made me lie down for a bit, and then took blood from my right arm.

once i got back home, i told my mom about what happened. so, she decided that i should just stay home and rest instead of going for my 3rd round of blood test at the lab. oh yea, forgot to mention that i had to fast approximately 9 hours for the blood tests.

bleaagh...anyhows, mom made me eat 'proper' breakfast and then get some sleep. sigh. that was good.

and finally 2day, i went for my 3rd round. oh boy, it was bad again.
another lab assistant-guy was around. my mom had mentioned to him that i had taken a blood test yesterday. and so i thought i'd better tell that it would be easier if he took blood from my right arm.
but nooo~, he thought he'd try my left am first!!!
bleagh. again 2 pricks on my left arm!!! how annoying is that??!!
and finally he did switch over to my right arm. and guess what? blood flowed easier. grrrrrrrr...
fc rnubvecibwjnslkmjiwuecvyf
i got no words....

here's 2 pix of my arms ;(

my left arm (mega bruised)
















my right arm (not too bad)

adioz
~shakti~

dreaming...

in sepia blurs...

chaotic

so many things to say.

i feel like blogging on all that i have left out this week to make up for my neglect. but time is not enough.

even to sum it up.

im feeling more lost than ever.

in life. and in love.

i wonder.

will there be someone?

so far, it's been only liked and lost.

loved...probably never was.

i dont even know what i could have called it, though foolishly it was named 'love'.

now i know.

adioz

~shakti~

ajeeb lakti ho

feels weird. dunno why.

from the friend who helped me respect myself.

now seems to have changed. and also my closest friend.

seems to be wanting my friendship for the sake of fringe benefits.

or more. i dont know who to trust anymore.

i cant trust myself also. i break my own promises.

who else is left?

adioz

~shakti~