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yeah, u guessed it... i went for the third time ;) nuff sed. adioz ~shakti~

i dunno why… i’m just feeling as though i’m good for nothing… seriously… the last couple of days passed in lethargy… which got worse today… i haven’t exactly doing stuff that i want… especially today… and with friends, i feel like im at an information centre…they call/talk to me only when they want something, or want me to do a favour… i mean, isn’t there anyone who’ll appreciate me for me… i know i make it a point to keep in touch with friends… now i feel what my mom said is right…i’ve been making myself look like a fool… with the words ‘Gullible’ written on my forehead! for goodness sake, please don’t treat me like this… i don’t do this to you guys… and i wouldn’t do this to you…ever! it’s these kinda times that i wish i had someone… a special someone… whom i can just pour my heart out…and not be judged… adioz ~shakti~

went to watch angels and demons for the second time today. the first show that was available - 11am ;) but unfortunately, a couple of bimbos that sat behind me and my friend would not shut up!! at all!! their 'volume' started to go higher somewhat in the middle of the movie. being a tolerant person, i tried to ignore them. and when it got too annoying, i turned and told them to keep quiet. but apparently no avail. though they did quieten...abit. not alot. towards the end, they started to talk loudly and were laughing at inappropriate times. seriously, that is bloody annoying. i mean come on, you're in a theatre, not at your house with a couple of loser friends. other people too are watching. that's when i lost it and told them to "shut up!" and they actually began to talk more!! on purpose!! how impudent was that!!! damn... a great movie though... spoilt by idiots! adioz ~shakti~

omg omg omg omg omg!!!!! one word – awesoméfied!!!! (yeah, i just created a new word ;P) i noe by now i sound like a hyper-teenaged school girl. but heck. im saying it like i saw it. seriously, though im not the kind of a person who recommends movie’s to others, this one i would. but a word of caution. if you’re kind of the staunch Catholic or not into Dan Brown’s books, then i feel you might not enjoy this movie. but sometimes, we just need to open our minds and give others/new ideas a chance. kinda like the theme of this movie i guess… i better shut up before i reveal the rest of the story. ;P im hyper-excited. lolx. and also my tip for watching movies – ANY movie. go in with little or ZERO expectations. that way, u don’t get disappointed. ;) adioz ~shakti~ p.s. i usually don’t watch an ‘adapted’ movie (a.k.a. Harry Potter) without reading them first. same with the da vinci code. i actually read the book first, then watched. this is one exception at the moment. so now, my next quest

~don't leave me~ grandma went home today. she was pretty sad. i'll miss her too. adioz ~shakti~

didnt actually finish the last two... was kinda busy...things kept coming up after that. and now grandma is staying over. im not complaining about that though ;) i love having her around. nyways i might be busy for the next few days... adioz ~shakti~

6. dry them (load 2 is still on the spin) 7. clean my room 8. clear my cupboard should have started as it was listed. i tried to clear my cupboard first. disaster! will be back... adioz ~shakti~

yeah...and it gets pretty annoying when someone keeps nagging ya to turn off the modem...so ciaoz for now... i gotta finish the last 3 ;) adioz ~shakti~

things to do today... 1. tidy the hall 2. sweep the house 3. wash the dishes 4. dry them 5. put clothes for washing 6. dry them (load 2 is still on the spin) 7. clean my room 8. organise my cupboard 5 out of 8...i feel pretty proud. not to mention, i did one extra that my mom called and asked me to do. - cut up vegies ;P so now, i deserve a little break. adioz ~shakti~

time to check it. i joined it but then havent done anything. hmmm... but first... to the chores! ;P adioz ~shakti~

things to do today... 1. tidy the hall 2. sweep the house 3. wash the dishes 4. dry them 5. put clothes for washing 6. dry them 7. clean my room 8. organise my cupboard i think that's enough for now.... adioz ~shakti~

aaaaoooooooouucccccchhhhhh!!! im beginning to hate blood tests!! i used to think it's just a prick, and you would get it done and over with. but nooooo~ you under-experienced lab assistants and nurses can't even get the blood out of me in a single prick! seriously!! not one, but 2-3 times until they finally get my vein n draw the blood out!!! sickening... and i thought i had to take only one test...and at the most maybe, two for a confirmation... i had to take three!!! make it 3 and a half cos the 1st time around, they prick me a few times and they COULD NOT get any blood!! small veins it seems! my foot!!! then, because they didn't have the "right equipment"" a.k.a. some 'butterfly needle', they asked me to come back in two days time. when i went 2 days later, it turned out to be a busy day. i had to wait pretty long. finally, sometime later, my mom's student, who is working as a lab assisstant decided to do it. she too had trouble. but in the end

in sepia blurs...

so many things to say. i feel like blogging on all that i have left out this week to make up for my neglect. but time is not enough. even to sum it up. im feeling more lost than ever. in life. and in love. i wonder. will there be someone? so far, it's been only liked and lost. loved...probably never was. i dont even know what i could have called it, though foolishly it was named 'love'. now i know. adioz ~shakti~

feels weird. dunno why. from the friend who helped me respect myself. now seems to have changed. and also my closest friend. seems to be wanting my friendship for the sake of fringe benefits. or more. i dont know who to trust anymore. i cant trust myself also. i break my own promises. who else is left? adioz ~shakti~