A fool's love...

I can't stop grieving over you.
Its been months now...
Since the relationship between us has died.
But you're still too blind to see.
You still think its alive, although all that's left is a withered rose.
And you come back once in what feels like decade, to water the dying plant.

In the beginning of our time,
You had asked me to be part of your world.
And you showed me, what appeared to be your world at that time.
However, you never let me cross certain borders.
From where I stood, I could see glimpses of what it contained
Some really beautiful, some really painful.
But I loved it all.

When I had invited you to my world,
You looked at it in disdain,
And behaved like everything was mundane.
I realised you couldn't comprehend the complexity of my world.
Although I hoped that, one day you could.

Suddenly, out of the blue,
I found myself thrown out your world.
I didn't know how I ended up here
Or who to turn to.
Because you had shut me me off.

I kept trying to enter again, but you wouldn't let me.
Instead, you only showed me fragments of it...
Through the window.
You knew how much I wanted to be part of your world,
And yet, you kept me waiting at the gates.
In patience, I waited...because I felt that one day,
You will let me in again...

I waited,
For what felt like an entire millennia,
But then I realised, you will never let me in again.
And neither will you appreciate my world that had been open out to you.
I could see that you had become stuck in your world
Trapped.
In a world that is too fast paced and packed with no space to spare
Not even for the one who loves you so dear

I guess you'll never know how much this fool loves you...

I should have known...
No one stays forever...
Nothing is permanent...

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end note: I just felt like writing this because, out of the blue I started missing him so much.

adioz
~shakti~

Asante sana squash banana, wewe nugu mimi hapana...

A random post...


Awhile back, I came across this video...

...while I was looking for one of the lion king quotes...
I had wanted to tell someone about something, and therefore I needed to find the quote to make sure I don't misquote it...
But in the end, it was different from what I originally thought it was...

I thought it said >> remember, who you are, the one true (insert adjective)... etc.
*but I was wrong
The original quote>> remember, who you are. you are my son, the one true king.
Not much wrong, but it wouldn't have given the same effect to what I had wanted to write for someone.

Anyways, that's when I started searching for the 2nd video...because I had come across it in one of the image searches.

The reason why i searched for the 2nd video was because it made me think about myself and what I have been going through so far. And the best part, this realization came from an old and well loved Disney cartoon.
What I've learnt so far:

1. You can't change the past
2. The past can hurt
3. But you can CHOOSE to run from it...or learn from it.

I just hope that I'll be able to face stuff I have been avoiding so long.

And here's a bonus...
The meaning for the title..
Enjoy!

adioz
~shakti~