chaos in the midst of confusion

so much of chaos in the midst of my existing confusion...
all the problems seem to be just adding and adding...
but i dont see any signs of it dissipating
worse, i cant find the solution for all these...
how i wish it was all an illusion...

not all problem are without a solution...
perhaps, there are one or two...
it will probably take a while...
but the aftermath of it is what i'm gonna hate...
cos, its not gonna be good

having to explain and explain...
and explain and explain till my throat's all dry...
dealing with all the looks of disbelief for what had happened...
with them thinking that it cud all be a lie...

what went wrong?
why it went wrong?
how it went wrong?
what was the cause of it?
who is to blame?
why was i so careless?
when will all of this resolve?

questions after questions...
how much more do i need to do....
just prove myself
i know i am not perfect
but judging me this way is not helping
its only makes things worse

so much talks
about what to do
and how to do
but no one talks
about the money that is needed to do

*sigh*

another day
another dawn
another dusk
another night

constant
yet different...

i know i still have a long way to go


adioz
~shakti~