Question everything!

Why is it that I always feel like an outsider in my own family?
Why am I different?
Where did I go wrong? What went wrong?
Why am I the way I am now?
What made me this way?
Am I that slow? Or incapable?
Why do I not care as much as I should?
Why am I so selfish?
Why can't I find acceptance?
Why does it hurt so bad?
Will I ever get accepted?
Can I find myself?
When will I find my happiness?
Why don't I know anything?
Why am I still being the same way?
Why can't I change?
What will enable me to gain acceptance from my parents?
Why do I choose to do things which are hard, and I know I cant do it?
Why do I have so much pain and darkness in me?
Why do I have so many questions?

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