im back!

yay to me...
lolx...im so vain at times ;P
nyways, im just glad to be back to blogging now that my exams are over
but the ordeal is not over yet...only diminisehd temporarily
this is because the results will be out in mid Dec...
im so not looking forward to that...
sigh...

but yeah, im glad to be back ;)

adioz
~shakti~

examz examz examz!!!

aaaaaarrggggghhhhh!!!!

im being driven to the point of insanity...

i shall post soon again once this torture is over...

BLOG BREAK!!!

adioz
~shakti~

an epiphany...i think...part 2

hmmm...
after posting that bit...
i felt that i didnt explain what exactly my epiphany was...and ended up getting side-tracked...
so here goes...hopefully i wont get side-tracked this time....

ok...so, this show was about finding one's identity, which posed the question asked by men since the beginning of time ~ 'who am i?'
how do we go about in this quest when we are quite ill-equiped?
in my opinion, only those who dare venture out of their comfort zones have actually found the answer to this question...

in this show, it featured mainly about 'Nadi Astrology', which a form of an Indian astrology which has astounded many beyond belief.
as much as i am very tempted to believe in this, the sceptic within me keeps questioning...you see, this astrology specialises in letting one know about what they want to know of what maybe Fate holds for them...the whole concept is not quite clear for me.

from what i understood, it is said that the records one's past, present and future is recorded within the the Palm Leaf Manuscripts...
everyone's, that is...and the way to find a persons records are based just on the individual's fingerprints...

ok, so there is this huge 'database' of what you would call to be something like Nostradamus's prophecies...except for the part where the "reader"(this is referring to the person who reads out the astrology from the Palm Leaf Manuscripts) says that, even though all past events or Fated events have been recorded, a person still has the power to change his/her own destiny.

this shows that in some way or other, humans are still in control of their lives no matter what.

but i wish to digress now...
to my point of epiphany...bear with me because this may go on longer than i thought...

u see, in my point of view...i feel that everything has become meaningless.
because, at the end everyone dies. and what happens next is unknown to mankind, though there are those who claim to have been to the other side.
regardless to that, life is becoming a mundane cycle
let me illustrate;

->a child is born as the product of their parents
-> they grow in their care -> as time passes, it is time for them to gain knowledge of the world through what is called as "education"
-> at this point of time, they are supposed to learn all the good values such as kindness, sympathy, sharing, etc. but then become subjected to the competition that pulls everyone to its vortex...a mere child at the age of 5-6 has now become competitive with his/her peers...yes, at pre-school! competing to see who gets better marks at spelling,quizzes and who is the best in class...
-> this further escalates when the child actually goes to school. when children want to actually learn and make friends, parents begin to push their child to strive for excellence! note; i didnt say strive for the best, but excellence...there is a difference...
a child can strive to do the best of his/her capabilities...but to strive for the excellence means to go beyond the capacity itself. even if it means sacrificing the child's happiness...
-> continues to secondary level...at this point if the child cannot take it any longer, he/she might begin to rebel, feel miserable. some may break out of that cast that is holding them. some don't...
-> since education in primary and secondary were chosen by parents, at least by now, the 'child' should have some freedom for the tertiary education...but no, some parents still 'prefer' to choose the "best" for their child...thankfully, due to modern times, parents no longer interfere...
but yet, dissatisfaction is shown openly by those who do not approve of the choices...
-> time for work...there are several choices - a)pick a job you love , but dont earn as much money; b) pick a job you hate, but earn alot..at the same won't have a social life because your primary concern will be your job; c)get a job you love and earn well; or d) dont get a job at all
-> somewhere along this time, or maybe earlier...you might find the 'someone special' to spend your life with...if you're lucky, it's love for life...
if not...too bad, either live with the mistake anyway, or get a divorce and continue on your quest for a soulmate...
-> along comes a child or two or three...depends on each individual...
and so the process repeats...only that, now you also realise that you have to care for your aging parents...this is a responsibility that wasnt on your to do list when you were a kid...well now you know...
-> and so carries on the process of aging...which carries you to your grave,cremation site, etc.
and then what??
is this the cycle of life that is meant for us humans??

im not trying to be a pessimist, or depressed rave...
but is there all there is to life...
i feel that there is more than what we see...


i think i better stop here...
adioz
~shakti~

an epiphany...i think...part 1

last saturday i think, i had watched a show...more like an episode of a show - mysticism of india...or something like that..and the title of that show was 'who am i?'
the main theme of the show was how using 'Nadi Joshyam' or what one would a call a method of indian astrology, could possibly help in the quest for one's search for self...since astrology is a so-called inexact science.

the point of this show was to discover one's self...
how to attain knowledge/understanding yourself in the crazy "Kaliyug" world...
it was said that with 'Nadi Joshyam' one's past, present and future is documented within the palm leaf manuscripts...which many claim that this method is frighteningly accurate. apparently it is able to reveal your whole biodata with just a mere fingerprint.

if this were something true, why isnt everyone clamouring to find out about themselves in the first place, especially those in india?
sure this world is filled with all sorts of sceptics.
but hey, arent there more believers than non-believers???
and as such, with the world becoming a more dangerous place to live in, why cant these people actually find out what is gonna happen to this big 'old', 'lovely' world of ours??
oh, and in that process, why not find out what is president bush's future???
that could atleast warned us about what he was about to do to iraq!

oh well...enough of my crap for now,
and so much for epiphany...


more info in Nadi Joshyam
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nadi_astrology)

adioz
~shakti~

i think my taste buds are coming around... ;P

olla peepz…
assuming that I do have some sort of a readership… ;P
nyways…coming straight to the point, I just found out why I needed 2 sachets of the Nescafe coffee instead of just one.
aand….


*drumroll*




that was the Nescafe MILD instant mix.
so that explains the coffee taste…but not the not the other stuff though…
hmmm….
I shall now retreat to my batcave to ponder this matter…

adioz
~shakti~

boredom strikes again...

*sigh*
boredom kills

i think i murdered my taste buds

i'm actually serious about my statement...that i have murdered my taste buds...or hopefully that they are in coma; so that they can revive goodnes knows when.

the reason why i started thinking about this was due to the instant coffee i made the other nite to stay up and chat with my friend. mind u, i wasnt sleepy, but i wanted to keep awake longer. ;P

and so i got this nescafe instant coffee sachets. usually i use 2 sachets, because that's i do with the instant milo drink too - more chocalatey... and hence i do the same thing to the coffee to make it more coffee-ey, plus the extra caffeine.
n.b. i'm not exactly a caffeine person, but every now and a boost of it doesnt hurt...for me that is...

so that night i thought, why do i have to take 2 sachets, one should be enough. after all, isnt that the rcommended 'dose'? after i took a sip of it, i was quite appalled by the blandness of the drink.

that's when it struck me that my sense of taste has gone abit wacko...
which also explained why i added too much sugar, and too much cordial...
but the odd thing is, i cant tolerate more that 2 teaspoons of sugar when i mix chocolate drinks...

i wonder...does the cocoa compensate for sugar?
nahh, i dont think so, because, cocoa in its essence is actually bitter...
well, this doesnt explain a single thing...
*sigh*

welcome to my weird world
adioz
shakti

loving each other...

[MALE]
nee enthan anbe,uyirodu kaathal kalantheine,
intha kaathal vaazhkai, maru jenmam tharuviya...

[FEMALE]
varutham vendaam kaathala, piriyum vaazhkai illaiyada...
enthan vaazhkaiyum naan vaazhnthaal, athu unnudan thaanada...

[MALE]
ithuve pothume, azhagane anbu kaathaliye
vaarthaigal illaiye, intha vaazhkai pothume...

[FEMALE]
en azhaga arugil vaa, ithu kanavu illaiyada...
un anbu pothume, ithu mel ethu vendume...

[FEMALE]
kangal, kannir varuthe...
intha kaathal, unnai vittu piriyathe...

[MALE]
malargal pol irukkirai, ennai anaikka thudikkiraai
kulinthene en nanbannadhil
magizhnthene en argunalil
kaathalii...
ooooh....uyir kathaliiyea...

[MALE]
nee enthan anbe,uyirodu kathal kalantheine,
intha kaathal vaazhkai, maru jenmam tharuviya...

[FEMALE]
varutham vendaam kaathala, piriyum vaazhkai illaiyada...
enthan vaazhkaiyum naan vaazhnthaal, athu unnudan thaanada...

[MALE]
vaazhnthaal, unnudan vaazhuvean...
maranam vanthal, thanimeiyil selluvean...

[FEMALE]
thanimeiyil povaya, ennai vittu selvaya...
ezhu jenmangal unnodu thaan...
maranam vanthallum kaathal pirivu illaiye...
oh...ohh uyir kathalane...

[MALE]
ithuve pothume, azhagane anbu kaathaliye...
vaarthaigal illaiye, intha vaazhkai pothume...

[FEMALE]
en azhaga arugil vaa, ithu kanavu illaiyada...
un anbu pothume ithu mel ethu vendume...






when i first heard this song, i thought it wasnt anything spectacular...just another love song...or so i thought...
then i decided to listen again, but this time focusing on the lyrics themselves...and i was blown away!
because, the entire song was a dedication for each lover, as well as a confession of and ultimate love for each other...
hence i was curious to watch the video of this song. but that's when i was in for a shock...
he loses the girl of his dreams...not to Death...
but to another man. going against her wishes, her parents forced her to marry a man of their choice...
that's when the song's lyrics became even more significant...

adioz
~shakti~

hols are ending

despite the fact that i had two weeks of hols, i pretty much neglected my blogs...but thanks to my friend, the neglect was quite minimal.

therefore, my thanks to my friend alvin.
mikka nandri un atharavinal...
hehehe

nyways...to sum up my hols...
i would say that it has been pretty pathetic.
even though i had planned so much, most of it remained as plans and nothing more.this shows what a lazy ass i have.
and this is definitely not good if i want to further my studies in the medical field.
dumb ain't it?
but hey, i do know potential...sadly,i would say it's my own fault that i have not been living up to it.
it's true what my parents have said, i have this warped tendency to blame others for my circumstances...then again...some are actually due to other people. but now, i do take responsibilty for what i do.
seriously.
there are some tweakings to be done, but the progress is good so far.
however, i feel that i can actually make more improvements.
thus, i thought that i should actually write dowm some goals, but due to past experience ~ results weren't that good.
so i am kinda out of ideas at the moment...
both for this blog and my life ;P
anyhow, tomorrow is the very last day of my last hols for this year.
so i sincerely hope that i would be able to regularly post my blogs...

adioz
~shakti~

Retards

i found this funny picture while i was browsing around looking for some inspiration to do some customization for my blog...
since at the moment it looks boring as...

oh well...so i thought, why not share this picture with others...

after all...looking at it just made my day.

hope it does the same for you...

adioz

kis liye maine pyaar kiya...

Kis liye maine pyar kiya...
Dil ko yoon hi beqarar kiya...
Shaam savere teri raah dekhi...
Raat din intezaar kiya...

meaning:

why did i fall in love with you...
why did u break my heart for no reason...
eve and morn looking your way...
day and night i wait for you...

everytime i listen to this song...it reminds me of how beautiful and painful love can be...

*sigh*
the dual nature of love...can't live with it,can't live without it
you can't live with love and not experience the pain and heartache that it causes throughout...
one can't live without love because that is the very essence of humans...
everyone needs love, everyone deserves love...