an epiphany...i think...part 1

last saturday i think, i had watched a show...more like an episode of a show - mysticism of india...or something like that..and the title of that show was 'who am i?'
the main theme of the show was how using 'Nadi Joshyam' or what one would a call a method of indian astrology, could possibly help in the quest for one's search for self...since astrology is a so-called inexact science.

the point of this show was to discover one's self...
how to attain knowledge/understanding yourself in the crazy "Kaliyug" world...
it was said that with 'Nadi Joshyam' one's past, present and future is documented within the palm leaf manuscripts...which many claim that this method is frighteningly accurate. apparently it is able to reveal your whole biodata with just a mere fingerprint.

if this were something true, why isnt everyone clamouring to find out about themselves in the first place, especially those in india?
sure this world is filled with all sorts of sceptics.
but hey, arent there more believers than non-believers???
and as such, with the world becoming a more dangerous place to live in, why cant these people actually find out what is gonna happen to this big 'old', 'lovely' world of ours??
oh, and in that process, why not find out what is president bush's future???
that could atleast warned us about what he was about to do to iraq!

oh well...enough of my crap for now,
and so much for epiphany...


more info in Nadi Joshyam
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nadi_astrology)

adioz
~shakti~

i think my taste buds are coming around... ;P

olla peepz…
assuming that I do have some sort of a readership… ;P
nyways…coming straight to the point, I just found out why I needed 2 sachets of the Nescafe coffee instead of just one.
aand….


*drumroll*




that was the Nescafe MILD instant mix.
so that explains the coffee taste…but not the not the other stuff though…
hmmm….
I shall now retreat to my batcave to ponder this matter…

adioz
~shakti~

boredom strikes again...

*sigh*
boredom kills

i think i murdered my taste buds

i'm actually serious about my statement...that i have murdered my taste buds...or hopefully that they are in coma; so that they can revive goodnes knows when.

the reason why i started thinking about this was due to the instant coffee i made the other nite to stay up and chat with my friend. mind u, i wasnt sleepy, but i wanted to keep awake longer. ;P

and so i got this nescafe instant coffee sachets. usually i use 2 sachets, because that's i do with the instant milo drink too - more chocalatey... and hence i do the same thing to the coffee to make it more coffee-ey, plus the extra caffeine.
n.b. i'm not exactly a caffeine person, but every now and a boost of it doesnt hurt...for me that is...

so that night i thought, why do i have to take 2 sachets, one should be enough. after all, isnt that the rcommended 'dose'? after i took a sip of it, i was quite appalled by the blandness of the drink.

that's when it struck me that my sense of taste has gone abit wacko...
which also explained why i added too much sugar, and too much cordial...
but the odd thing is, i cant tolerate more that 2 teaspoons of sugar when i mix chocolate drinks...

i wonder...does the cocoa compensate for sugar?
nahh, i dont think so, because, cocoa in its essence is actually bitter...
well, this doesnt explain a single thing...
*sigh*

welcome to my weird world
adioz
shakti

loving each other...

[MALE]
nee enthan anbe,uyirodu kaathal kalantheine,
intha kaathal vaazhkai, maru jenmam tharuviya...

[FEMALE]
varutham vendaam kaathala, piriyum vaazhkai illaiyada...
enthan vaazhkaiyum naan vaazhnthaal, athu unnudan thaanada...

[MALE]
ithuve pothume, azhagane anbu kaathaliye
vaarthaigal illaiye, intha vaazhkai pothume...

[FEMALE]
en azhaga arugil vaa, ithu kanavu illaiyada...
un anbu pothume, ithu mel ethu vendume...

[FEMALE]
kangal, kannir varuthe...
intha kaathal, unnai vittu piriyathe...

[MALE]
malargal pol irukkirai, ennai anaikka thudikkiraai
kulinthene en nanbannadhil
magizhnthene en argunalil
kaathalii...
ooooh....uyir kathaliiyea...

[MALE]
nee enthan anbe,uyirodu kathal kalantheine,
intha kaathal vaazhkai, maru jenmam tharuviya...

[FEMALE]
varutham vendaam kaathala, piriyum vaazhkai illaiyada...
enthan vaazhkaiyum naan vaazhnthaal, athu unnudan thaanada...

[MALE]
vaazhnthaal, unnudan vaazhuvean...
maranam vanthal, thanimeiyil selluvean...

[FEMALE]
thanimeiyil povaya, ennai vittu selvaya...
ezhu jenmangal unnodu thaan...
maranam vanthallum kaathal pirivu illaiye...
oh...ohh uyir kathalane...

[MALE]
ithuve pothume, azhagane anbu kaathaliye...
vaarthaigal illaiye, intha vaazhkai pothume...

[FEMALE]
en azhaga arugil vaa, ithu kanavu illaiyada...
un anbu pothume ithu mel ethu vendume...






when i first heard this song, i thought it wasnt anything spectacular...just another love song...or so i thought...
then i decided to listen again, but this time focusing on the lyrics themselves...and i was blown away!
because, the entire song was a dedication for each lover, as well as a confession of and ultimate love for each other...
hence i was curious to watch the video of this song. but that's when i was in for a shock...
he loses the girl of his dreams...not to Death...
but to another man. going against her wishes, her parents forced her to marry a man of their choice...
that's when the song's lyrics became even more significant...

adioz
~shakti~

hols are ending

despite the fact that i had two weeks of hols, i pretty much neglected my blogs...but thanks to my friend, the neglect was quite minimal.

therefore, my thanks to my friend alvin.
mikka nandri un atharavinal...
hehehe

nyways...to sum up my hols...
i would say that it has been pretty pathetic.
even though i had planned so much, most of it remained as plans and nothing more.this shows what a lazy ass i have.
and this is definitely not good if i want to further my studies in the medical field.
dumb ain't it?
but hey, i do know potential...sadly,i would say it's my own fault that i have not been living up to it.
it's true what my parents have said, i have this warped tendency to blame others for my circumstances...then again...some are actually due to other people. but now, i do take responsibilty for what i do.
seriously.
there are some tweakings to be done, but the progress is good so far.
however, i feel that i can actually make more improvements.
thus, i thought that i should actually write dowm some goals, but due to past experience ~ results weren't that good.
so i am kinda out of ideas at the moment...
both for this blog and my life ;P
anyhow, tomorrow is the very last day of my last hols for this year.
so i sincerely hope that i would be able to regularly post my blogs...

adioz
~shakti~

Retards

i found this funny picture while i was browsing around looking for some inspiration to do some customization for my blog...
since at the moment it looks boring as...

oh well...so i thought, why not share this picture with others...

after all...looking at it just made my day.

hope it does the same for you...

adioz

kis liye maine pyaar kiya...

Kis liye maine pyar kiya...
Dil ko yoon hi beqarar kiya...
Shaam savere teri raah dekhi...
Raat din intezaar kiya...

meaning:

why did i fall in love with you...
why did u break my heart for no reason...
eve and morn looking your way...
day and night i wait for you...

everytime i listen to this song...it reminds me of how beautiful and painful love can be...

*sigh*
the dual nature of love...can't live with it,can't live without it
you can't live with love and not experience the pain and heartache that it causes throughout...
one can't live without love because that is the very essence of humans...
everyone needs love, everyone deserves love...

updaaaates!

family member found!!!
yay to that....
but unfortunately....
more trouble appears to be brewing...
but that's that!

im gonna zip my mouth after this -_-
just back to update that news

adios
~shakti~

me back again

1st day of hols...

bored...to death...
should be studying...
somehow still unmotivated...
not good...

bleeagh...

oh yes...to my previously made statement...
that i shall update u (my readers - unless im in the delusion that i do have readers)
well...my life has become even more overwhelming than ever...
first off, even with my two week break,

i still have to study - intensively *sigh*

and on top off that...i had been receiving bad news from the homeland...
a family member has gone missing...
with no leads whatsoever...

im not gonna delve into that topic in detail...
cos i dont feel that it is right to bring out and about something that needs to be kept hush-hush
so there...

myehh...me and my iffy moods...
and no...im not pms-ing...

muahahaha
sheesh
i have got a screw loose (maybe a few)

adios
~shakti~

the so-called holidays are back again

yea...and all the more my mind is in a turmoil...
this is supposedly a "working holiday" - as put by my teachers
oh yea...this is one heck of a holiday where i cant relax...
bleeaaagghhh...
not good!
and on top of it...im getting all confuzzled about stuff that's been happening the past couple of weeks...

will elaborate soon....
hopefully

adios
~shakti~