letter to my love...

my love...

i feel like its been ages since we talked properly...

yeah, i know i called you earlier...but that wasnt talking...

that was worry...since there was no call from you since yesterday...

i know, it seems like im being paranoid...

but neeye sollu...dont you think there's a distance?

its like we dont communicate anymore...like the calls are for the sake of calling, updating me with whats going on over there and thats it...

yeah, i know you're very busy sayang...that's why when i want to call you aso, i have to think many times...because i dont want to disturb you...but at the same time i feel so neglected without having you by my side...

werent we supposed to be in this together?

us sharing our lives together? instead its like we're leading totally separate lives...at this rate, it's like we're not even able to spare some time for each other...

i feel it badly...this is not how i feel it should be...

i really miss the times that we had together...

what use is it planning for the future if the present itself is being neglected...

and i also feel like you dont know who i am anymore...

its like us being in an arranged r'ship...not knowing anything about the other...

what happened sayang? is it because i did something?

and what's happening? i seriously dont get it at all...its like you're missing...

and there's always this constant emptiness in me....at 1st i thought it was because i had lost myself in the process of coming back here...but i realised...i'm also losing you...i feel like i cant connect with you anymore sayang....

and that day, when my frend came over to my place...i realised a few things...

there were questions that he was asking about me that day...and deep in my heart, i was thinking that these were the questions which should be coming from you in the 1st place...questions that we should be asking each other to get to know each other...

its like we never truly got to know each other sayang...like there's a phase missing in our rship sayang...i dont know if you ever noticed this or not...

and sumore, i told you before, i'm always having this trouble of being open with you...especially when we're talking...and i hate that alot...its like im always keeping myself hidden from you...this is not how i want to be with you, the man who i want to my whole life with...

i didnt know any other way to tell you sayang...i know, its very cowardly for not telling directly...

but if i did that, i know u will get hurt too...and this is the one way i feel that i can actually voice what i want to say to you...

'i just love you so much da...i dont want us to drift apart...

love you always...